Therapy Session :)

So I am taking to the keyboard for a little therapy. I have had a rough 2 days. I feel drained. I was positive Gene had a job. It would have been a big pay cut but it was a job ! The job was said to be his. We were at first confused by it but then became excited. As a family we so desire normalcy. We prayed that if for any reason it was not what God wanted that he would intervene and cause the job to be no longer his. Arhhhh ! That is exactly what happened. I have been asking God for a job and home. Yet I don't want 3rd or even 2nd best because I am not patient enough for God's first choice for us. Eugene told me today in church he really felt God tell him that He is asking him to step out in more faith then he has yet ! That was scary....... I already feel like we have stepped out in ton's of faith ! How much more ? LOL Please pray for me as the past 2 days I have been really discouraged. I know God must have exciting things in store for us if he asking us to step out in more faith........but along with the excitement there is also some fear. I believe my husband is about to take some big steps. Pray that I can follow in faith and be the praying supporting wife God wants me to be.