Confession time............ :)

So I have a confession to make :) You know how on Sunday night I blogged my declaration of powerful and truthful words ? Well, here is the deal..... I STARTED Sunday morning out somewhat differently ! I woke up earlier then the rest of my family and thought wow ! some time to myself :) So how did I exactly spend that hour to myself you ask ? I ....... went to the internet to inform myself of the latest news ! Now I know there is nothing wrong with this in itself but let me tell you..... how depressing ! NOT a good way to start your day out with positive thoughts. I had completely forgotton to say my faith confessions and instead opened my mind to things that only brought fear. Does anyone else out there struggle with this ? I think I should not bury my head in the sand and should be informed but then when I get informed I think I really should have kept my head buried ! The problem is I read story after story of murders, children being raped and kidnapped, the government and their plans, ext and it just makes me want to crawl up in a corner with my family and hope nothing ever "touches" us . Anyway, just wanted admit my shortcoming ! I hope all of you are staying with me in the 30 day challenge. Every one out there is a quiet bunch and I am wondering if you are out there at all ? lol If no one is reading this at least I am getting my own free version of therapy :) Today Eugene and Chad are painting chairs for "art" at school :) Nice thing about homeschooling is you can be flexible in your schedule. We found chairs on craiges list for the kitchen table and they needed some paint. Chad gets to spend some one on one time with daddy and I get some time all to myself :) I am super excited we are getting some of Chad's curriculum for school soon ! ( we have some already but not all ) We have to order it in increments because we are on a really tight budget. ( and man, curriculum is expensive, can spend $500.00 on it ! ) We have scraped a little together for some and will just trust God to bring the rest to us :) Have to go get Chad a drink. He just asked if I would get the worker man a drink ? LOL Ok I am back now :) We are praying about the next step we should take as a family. I really appreciate all the prayers from you all. We need to make a decision. We really need to hear God right now. It has been a long journey and we are really hoping God brings us to a resting place soon. Please pray that my husband makes the right decisions in the next week or so. We might be heading to a different state with the idea of settling down and just try to survive this economy. I know God has a plan and a purpose for us. Pray that we know the rights steps to take. Something in me cringes at the words "surviving the economy". I question as God's children should we feel we are just surviving ? Yet, I know that even if to the world it looks like we are just surviving we can walk in the blessings of God that the world does not understand. Blessings of a sort that offers so much more then money. At the same time the word of God says he will provide our EVERY need. I am taking this truth and claiming it for my family. WE will be blessed with a home of our own. My husband will be blessed with income. My husband will be blessed wherever he goes ! Our family will be blessed enough to bless others ! God is not a lire and I will hold on to the truths found in the word of God ! Not positive yet but I think we are taking a day trip tomorrow to Texas. Will be Chad's first time there :) Also we are talking about visiting relatives in Nebraska at the end of the week.