Thanksgiving is almost here......

Thanksgiving is almost here :) I am not as excited as I usually am when I have my own home but there are many seasons throughout one's life and I know this too will pass. Things are actually going extremeley well here at my parents and for that I am very thankful. Not having a place of our home could be much worse. I am thankful that we do have loving family by our side during this long winter season in our lives. And I do feel spring is just around the corner :) In fact I believe there are some blooms that are trying to peak up through the remaining snow. I want to make sure that not just at this time of year but all year long I remember to be thankful. To be real and honest with you there are times I just plain fail at this. Don't get me wrong I am extremely thankful for so many things among them our health and the bond that has formed between my family. I am not sure why I am having such a hard time with the whole house thing. I am constantly having to RE lay this situation down at the Lord's feet. I am not keeping it there but constantly realizing I once again "picked it back up" and stressing over it. I know as a wife and mother a home is what makes me feel defined. Yet I really truly want to only be defined in the Lord and NOT any thing of this world. I want this but I can not seem to achieve this ! Even as I write this I know that this is something I will never be able to achieve on my own but something the Lord will have to work within me. To be honest I believe the Lord wants a wife and mother to feel conected to her home, making it a place her family feels safe and secure. Making it a place our loved one's want to be at the end of the day. So while I know there is nothing wrong per say with desiring a home of our home I just need to learn to wait patiently and be content in this season :)