Emotions........

I have not written for two days so here I am wondering where to start. I have gotten out of my "groove". So much can happen in two days yet nothing at all. Making sense ? probably not ! I guess emotionally a lot has taken place but in the natural not a lot. I have been practising the "speaking forth blessings" I hope you all are remembering to do the same :) At times it can be easy to fall into the rut of " blah blah blah " ( fill in your own blahs ) but I find that if I start thinking down thoughts after one or two the holy spirit gently reminds me to change my thinking ! It looks like Eugene might get a job soon. Of course nothing actually has happened yet but I am choosing to think SOON ! There are four possible prospects all back in the south eastern area. As I feel the most home in this area I am believing that God will be opening the doors through one of these potential openings. I mentioned earlier emotionally a lot has happened. It is not so much that something huge happened but just a lot of different emotions triggered. What foremost comes to mind is the emotions I feel when it comes to my son. He being only 7 should never have to feel the emotions he is experiencing. It saddens me that there is nothing I can do to prevent them. He was upset the other day and couldn't sleep. Imagine my sadness when he stated that he is worried we might end up homeless if daddy doesn't get a job soon. I quickly tried to explain to him that this would never happen as we have God who will take care of us and family who would never let us sleep outside. He didn't understand then why we see people on the street who have no place to go and if it could happen to them then he thinks we could be next. It broke my heart that my son laid there with these fears. He has shared with me it is hard to believe God wants to take care of us because God has not given daddy a job yet. He asked me again yesterday if daddy is soon gonna have a job. I said yes. He then asked what the percentage rate is that he will soon have one. After hesitating I quickly sputtered 100% before I could chicken out. I do not lie to my son so I was absolutely saying this with all the faith I could muster. I only hope it at least equals to a mustard seed so we can see this " mountain " be moved ! I have been reminding God that he made my son and loves him more then I do...... so if he can please show himself to him and us. I am constantly asking him to look at his hurting heart and move on his behalf. I feel helpless as a parent. In the beginning of this whole experience I felt strongly that a lot of what was happening would in some way prepare Chad for something someday. I believe that the way our family handles this journey will effect how Chad views a relationship with God forever more. In the future I want him to be able to look back on this time and remember to be faithful to God even when God feels far away. For years my prayer has been that God will some day show himself to Chad in such a great way that Chad will never be able to doubt.....ever ! I have been asking God to show himself to Chad in a way most people never get to see him. I am hoping that soon God moves on all our behalf in such a great way that we NEVER forget ! * Great dinner idea ~ Tonight we had home fries and biscuits with gravy. Very Cheap ! When in doubt make a "breakfast" for dinner :)