What is this ?

Not a good picture and for that I apoligize ! What is this ? I have no idea but looked like it could give a mean sting !

I thought the way the moth blended in with the wall made a nice picture. The moth was huge !

A stranger that shows kindness .......

I am listening to the radio as they talk about acts of kindness or unkindness from strangers. It has got me thinking. How often do we go through our days passing strangers by with out a second glance. Why do we as humans find it difficult to smile and make eye contact with others. Fear of rejection maybe ? I know that if God has a stranger pass by me that needs a smile, or a mother who needs help picking up the mess all over the grocery floor from their young one, or a mom who needs an encouraging word while others stare at her with disdain because she can't control her child , or....... whatever the case may be, I want to be the stranger that shows kindness !

Greater is He that is within me then he that is ......

Greater is he that is within me then he that is in the world ! There are days where I need to remind myself of this truth. My God, who dwells in me, is greater then anything in the world. Though the enemy might try to scare me, the truth of the matter is MY GOD IS GREATER !!!!! This battle we are fighting will end in victory ! There is no other alternative other then victory. We will be victorious !!!! I will declare it yet again, VICTORY IS OURS !!!!!! As for me and my house we will serve the Lord. My family is covered my the blood of Jesus. The angels surround us. We are God's children. He cares for us and will not leave us. He will NEVER forsake us. We are his children and will walk in the authority given us by him. We will prosper in all we do. Our enemy's will flee. Those who mock us and persecute us will be held accountable to our Father in heaven. The truth will one day be made known. Our enemy's build a web of deceit trying to trap us in it but will one day wake up to find it is they themselves which they have trapped ! We will be the head and not the foot. We will lend to many but borrow from none. My family will prosper and be blessed in every area of life. We will not surrender to the enemy's lies ! Our God is a just and loving God. In him we will we trust. In him we will find our strength. The enemy has no grounds on us, he can try but HE WILL FAIL ! The bottom line is GREATER IS HE THAT IS WITHIN ME AND MY FAMILY THEN HE THAT IS WITHIN THE WORLD !

Emotions........

I have not written for two days so here I am wondering where to start. I have gotten out of my "groove". So much can happen in two days yet nothing at all. Making sense ? probably not ! I guess emotionally a lot has taken place but in the natural not a lot. I have been practising the "speaking forth blessings" I hope you all are remembering to do the same :) At times it can be easy to fall into the rut of " blah blah blah " ( fill in your own blahs ) but I find that if I start thinking down thoughts after one or two the holy spirit gently reminds me to change my thinking ! It looks like Eugene might get a job soon. Of course nothing actually has happened yet but I am choosing to think SOON ! There are four possible prospects all back in the south eastern area. As I feel the most home in this area I am believing that God will be opening the doors through one of these potential openings. I mentioned earlier emotionally a lot has happened. It is not so much that something huge happened but just a lot of different emotions triggered. What foremost comes to mind is the emotions I feel when it comes to my son. He being only 7 should never have to feel the emotions he is experiencing. It saddens me that there is nothing I can do to prevent them. He was upset the other day and couldn't sleep. Imagine my sadness when he stated that he is worried we might end up homeless if daddy doesn't get a job soon. I quickly tried to explain to him that this would never happen as we have God who will take care of us and family who would never let us sleep outside. He didn't understand then why we see people on the street who have no place to go and if it could happen to them then he thinks we could be next. It broke my heart that my son laid there with these fears. He has shared with me it is hard to believe God wants to take care of us because God has not given daddy a job yet. He asked me again yesterday if daddy is soon gonna have a job. I said yes. He then asked what the percentage rate is that he will soon have one. After hesitating I quickly sputtered 100% before I could chicken out. I do not lie to my son so I was absolutely saying this with all the faith I could muster. I only hope it at least equals to a mustard seed so we can see this " mountain " be moved ! I have been reminding God that he made my son and loves him more then I do...... so if he can please show himself to him and us. I am constantly asking him to look at his hurting heart and move on his behalf. I feel helpless as a parent. In the beginning of this whole experience I felt strongly that a lot of what was happening would in some way prepare Chad for something someday. I believe that the way our family handles this journey will effect how Chad views a relationship with God forever more. In the future I want him to be able to look back on this time and remember to be faithful to God even when God feels far away. For years my prayer has been that God will some day show himself to Chad in such a great way that Chad will never be able to doubt.....ever ! I have been asking God to show himself to Chad in a way most people never get to see him. I am hoping that soon God moves on all our behalf in such a great way that we NEVER forget ! * Great dinner idea ~ Tonight we had home fries and biscuits with gravy. Very Cheap ! When in doubt make a "breakfast" for dinner :)

Tall Chief Cove

Our 50cent (a piece) ice creasm treats bought on the way back. Yummy :)

The marina, at another part of the lake.

Chad riding his scooter around the parking lot at Tall Chief Cove.

More Pictures from Tall Chief Cove

Our lonely van all by itself in the parking lot.

Chad playing with his pirate ship.

Drying off in the warm sun.

A self attempt at taking our picture.

Chad taking a break.

Pictures from our day at Tall Chief Cove ........aka The Lake !

We finally spent some time at Tall Chief Cove also known as The Lake :) * Our "fire"

It was absolutely a beautiful day today ! The weather was perfect and we had the place mostly to our selves ! The first hour and half we were the only ones there. For the remaining two and a half we had two other small groups there. Each one way down on the other side :) If I am allowed one complaint about the day it would be the flys ! They bite ! I never knew common flys would just attack you and keep biting ......but that is what they did !

Chad's shoes are almost as big as daddy's ! He is getting so big !

Chad

Our stuff on the sand. We thought it would be common to the beach but once you got in the water the bottom was mud......took some getting use too. It was mostly hard but once in awhile soft. I had a lot of fun playing in the water with Chad and just hanging out with Eugene once I got over my fears ( No thanks to the show River Monsters and my husband asking what I am gonna do if a huge catfish comes after me ! )

~For those who are interested I wil be posting more pictures on my facebook tomorrow .

Will we ever make it to the lake......YES, tomorrow !

I am tired and unfortunately it is still light outside ! My husband just asked what we are going to do tonight. Take a walk or swimming ? What about go to bed early ? lol We never made it to the lake today. This morning we were informed our birth certificates would be delivered to us today and we needed to be here to sign for them. We needed to order our birth certificates so we can apply for our Oklahoma licences. We left ours in Pa. not knowing we would need them. They finally came tonight just as we sat down for dinner. So we had the pleasure of doing more school work today :) Tomorrow we will once again try to get to the lake. Only the third time planned..... don't they say the third time is the charm. lol I remembered to speak out blessings this morning and throughout the day today :) How about all of you ? In fact last night my right hand was giving me some problems that have been occurring lately. I usually will rub it and say something about how it is acting up again. Well, last night I started to do the usual but then remembered so I said instead " My hand will not receive any sickness ". Then when brushing my teeth last night I started thinking about some terrible things someone had done to me and wanted to think how could they....... but caught myself before I got worked up and instead said a prayer of blessing over them :) The last incident was today my son asked "Mom, is dad soon gonna get a job?" I hesitated and then said with sound assurance "YES". Yeah ! I made it through one night and a day ! Remember the breakfast pizza I said I was gonna make...... well, I did make it the other day and every one loved it :) It was real easy too ! I will post the recipe for you all. Also another great idea : Gene took a pie crust and baked it a little. Then he took some instant chocolate pudding. After making the pudding he added a container of cool whip to it. He then put the mixture in the crust and YUMMO ! We also found that if you freeze it a while before eating it is very tasty :) So that is a quick, cheap and more importantly TASTY treat to make when you need something of the sort. Here is the breakfast pizza recipe ~ 1 can ( 10 ounces ) refrigerated pizza dough ( I just used a pie crust and baked it a little before adding the other ingred. ) 1 package ( 7 ounces ) pre~browned fully cooked sausage patties, thawed 3 eggs 1/2 cup milk 1 teaspoon dried italian seasoning ( I only used about half of this amount ) 2 cups ( 8 ounces ) shredded pizza ~ style cheese ( I used colby/Monterrey Jack) 1. Preheat oven to 425 degrees. For crust unroll pizza dough and pat onto bottom and up side of greased 12-inch pizza pan. Bake 5 mins or until set, but not browned. 2. While crust is baking, cut sausage into 1/2 inch pieces. Whisk together eggs, milk, and italian seasoning in med. bowl until well blended. Season to taste with salt and pepper. 3. Spoon sausage over crust. Sprinkle with cheese. Carefully pour egg mixture over sausage and cheese. Bake 15-20 minutes or until eggs are set and crust is golden.

I have come up with a challenge.....are you ready ?

I am taking a short afternoon break from homeschooling. Thought maybe I could use this time to share with you all what has me so excited ! I have so many thoughts running through my head. Let's see if I can get them to slow down and write them down in an order that makes sense. Also without rambling ( for your sake ! ) Ahhhh ! I was starting to panic. Couldn't find my notes and gotta have the notes ! LOL All that I am sharing today is stuff that I already knew but needed to be reminded of. Eugene and I have been studying portions of this in the past week and then yesterday at church the pastor also referred to it. It is a great reminder at the perfect time in my life. While I am sure many of my readers already know what I am about to share, I am just as sure that a reminder won't hurt. Also I am not only going to encourage and remind but also challenge you to put this to the test with me over the next 30 days. Why 30 days ? Well, it is a good place to start and from there we can look back and see what a difference it made and continue to go on with it for the rest of the days in our lives ! In Proverbs 18:21 Solomon was led by the holy spirit to inform us that " Death and Life are in the power of the tongue and those who love it will eat it's fruits" STOP and REREAD that verse. Think about what it means. Think about what it REALLY means to us. We are told here that there is the power of life and death in our words. Now ask yourself if you truly believe in the word of God ? Do you believe in it's truths ? The answer I hope is a loud and sound "YES" ! Let's continue to look at the word for some more truths. In Luke 10:5-6 it says "But whatever house you enter, first say, ' Peace to this house'. And if the son of peace is there , your peace will rest on it; if not , it will return to you." As I read this verse the first things that come to mind is 1st we are to speak peace to those we visit, 2nd if the son of peace is there then by us speaking it forth it will rest there. It doesn't say then maybe it will rest there it just says IT WILL rest there ! IT WILL...... period. But if the son of peace is not there then it will come back to us. Another words if we bless others but they are not in a place of receiving that blessing then the blessing will return back to us. So here we are taught that with our mouths we can speak forth peace. Mathew 12:37 informs us " For by thy words thou shalt be justified and by the words thou shalt be condemned." If you back up to the prev. verse you will see that we will give account for every idle word we speak ( Mathew 12 : 36 ) There are many verses in the Bible that teach us and reinforce the truth of this subject. I am gonna refer to one more but I encourage all of you to do some research of your own as you will be able to find many more. James 3: 9-10 says " With the tongue we praise our Lord and Father, and with it we curse men, who have been made in God's likeness. Out of the same mouth come praise and cursing, My brothers this should not be." Now re read that verse again. Do you get it ? Out of the same mouth we praise our Father in heaven and we curse men. Wait, we what ? We CURSE men ?........ from this verse we see clearly that our words can curse men. There is power in our words. Whether we want to acknowledge it or not the bottom line is that as God's children we have the power to bless and to curse. Our words are very powerful. After all we ARE the son's and daughters of the one true king, the creator of the heavens and the earth. We have the authority of the king in us. We are his children and need to remember that ! If we speak negatively then we are allowing the enemy to have his way in those words. BUT if we learn to bridle our tongue we can speak life and blessing into others and our own life ! I know that there are many going through struggles right now. I believe more then we know considering many feel as if they can not reveal their struggles to others. I know for myself I have my days where life seems hard ! So what if every morning I take control of my thoughts and words right from the start ? What if instead of allowing the enemy to pull my thoughts down and then from there speaking out those thoughts I would start the day rejecting those devil placed thoughts ? We know the Bible tells us to resist the devil and HE WILL flee from us. (James 4:7) So what if every morning we start the day by speaking God's blessings over us ? What if we claim God's promises for us ? What if we choose to resist the doubt, torment, lies, unbelief, ext. in our heart and cast it out ? I know this seems so simple yet how often do we actually do this. Maybe your thinking I do this every morning, always have and always will, well then good for you ! Please pray for the rest of us to get it down pat ! I know I start off doing this but after so many days I just let it slip and before I know it it is a practise of my past. So here is my challenge. For the next 30 days lets start our days out speaking words of life and blessings over us and our loved ones. Let's resist the devil and his doings. I think satan knows how powerful this simple tool is and hopes that the children of God forget their authority and power of their words. LET'S NOT FORGET ! So what do you say will you join me ? I will give some examples as to what we can say and take authority over but I encourage you to write out your own and add some more specific things to your list. Then every morning whether you feel it or not speak these things out loud over you and your household. Say them and believe them ! Let's see how our words make a difference ! ~ I am a child of God. My God loves me and cares for me. He watches over me. He is there with me and will carry me through today. ~ I am blessed. I am blessed coming in and blessed going out. I will be at the head and not at the foot. I will lend to many and borrow from none. ~I am happy, healthy and whole. ~My body will accept no sickness. ~I am covered by the blood of Jesus. ~My children will love the Lord all the days of their lives. ~My God is greater then he that is in the world. Therefore I am a conqueror over any thing the enemy might place in my way. ~My husband will be blessed today. All that his hands touch will prosper. ~God has a plan for my life and I WILL FULFILL MY DESTINY ! While we can not use this as a tool to just get whatever we want we do need to realize that we have the power in our words to bless or curse. So let's start blessing ! We need to become aware of the mindset we are in. We can not give in to a mind set of " well , we are getting old, or I will just never be able to afford that, pass the test, clean this house, forgive that person, ( fill in your own of "I will never be able to..." ). Let's throw the mindset of the enemy out the window ! So what do you say, are you with me ? Are you ready to take the 30 day challenge ? It's only 30 days, you can do it !

Happy Monday !

Happy Monday ! While I do not have time to write right now about what I really want to share with everyone I did want to say good morning ! Later on today I will be sharing something that I think is really exciting. Something for all of us. In fact I am going to be challenging you to come along beside me in a 30 day challenge. Don't worry it is nothing hard. A simple thing in fact that takes less then 5 minutes a day..... But more about that later :) For now I need to go and get some schooling done with Chad. Tomorrow we will be going to the lake sense last week the weather prevented ! It will be great. I am so excited for this week. Good things will be happening. The winds of change are in the air. Talk to ya later......

Enjoy Today ~

Good Morning friends ! Blessings to everyone today. I pray that you remember to take today, the day of rest and enjoy the day ! God has blessed you with another day so enjoy :)

A poem .....

The following is a poem that I found in my youth. I have kept it with me in my journal as a reminder. I often enjoy rereading the things I have written or collected over the years. The following writing is NOT mine. I did not write this. I am not sure as to who the original author is. I wanted to share it with my readers. TODAY There are two days in every week about which we should not worry. Two days which should be kept from fear and apprehension. One of these days is yesterday with it's mistakes and cares, it's faults and blunders, it's aches and pains. Yesterday has passed forever beyond our control. All the money in the world cannot bring back yesterday. We can not erase a single word we said. Yesterday is gone. The other day we should not worry about is tomorrow with it's possible adversities, it's burdens, it's large promise and poor performance. Tomorrow is beyond our immediate control. Tomorrows sun will rise, either in splendor or behind a mask of clouds ~ But it will rise. Until it does we have no stake in tomorrow, for it is yet unborn. This leaves only one day~ Today. Any person can fight the battles of just one day. It is only when you and I add the burdens of those two awful eternities-yesterday and tomorrow that we break down. It is not the experience of today that drives us mad - it is the remorse or bitterness for something which happened yesterday and the dread of what will happen tomorrow.

Thank you Father.....

I am so glad the Lord loves us through it all. On our good days and our bad. Often the world can be so hard and brutal. People find it so easy to judge others thus making us feel as if we need to hide who we really are behind a mask. I think because of that we often think if others have such a hard time really having Christs love for me with my mistakes then how would Christ himself love me the way I am. Yet as I told my seven yr. old last night.... God is love. Period. God IS Love. He loves us ! Glory be to God..... Hallelujah ! He see's within me, Knows my darkest secrets and yet He still continues to love me ! Our God is a God of love ! Even when I sadden him with my lack of faith I am still his and he is still mine :) Yesterday was a rough day for me emotionally but that is ok. I have moved on and today is a new day. We get a fresh slate every morning. I am so in love with my Lord and he is in love with me. God is my provider. He has not left my family in this journey and He will continue to walk us through. When I stumble He does not let me there to drown in my tears but has a hand outstretched to help pick me up. On days when I feel as if I have no strength left within me He holds me and comforts me. Thank you Father for your everlasting love. Thank you that I am never alone. Thank you that your mercies are new every morning.

Me and my hubby :)

Sorry, I have yet to figure out how to move the pictures to their right standing point !

Me + Writing = Free Therapy

I am tired. Would love to take a nap. Should be listing stuff on ebay ( as per my husbands instructions ) could be cleaning up this place........probably for sure should not be writing ! With that said I think I will share some thoughts. Probably more for my own self then anyone elses but what can I say, I would just much rather write when I am in this mood. Write or sleep. I don't think I would get much sleeping done with all the commotion here so that brings me back to my choice to write. So what will I write about ? I could go on about the frustrations of having a great life and then loosing it but don't worry I won't. I could share how much my heart feels like it is ripping or how my eyes are often hiding pools of tears behind them but once again I will refrain. I know that we are so blessed. Deep down inside I know that. I know without a shadow of doubt every time I see a sick child or the homeless on the side of the road. God has been faithful to us through out this journey. I also remember that I prayed asking the Lord to take everything but our health, if that was what was needed for my prayer to be answered. I remember asking and I still mean it....on most days. I just didn't know it would be so hard. I feel bad for feeling this way. I wish I could every day experience the peace I know on some. I wish a complaint never exscaped from my lips. I ask my loving Father in heaven to forgive me for this. I wish I could pass with flying colors ! Why I can't just be closer to perfect I do not know ! I ask myself what is it that is bringing me to this great place of frustration today ? Without going into too much detail I will simply say we are all sharing a one bedroom apartment. I know that this is just temporally. Four weeks into it though and I need my space ! Or more accurate I think I need the loving embrace of my husband in our own space! I need to be able to talk to him without a seven year old always around. I need my husband to hold me and comfort me. My husband and I have come from a very difficult place in our marriage. One of the greatest blessings we have experienced from Gene being laid off and the journey it led us on , was our relationship after first almost going into extinct has now sprung into the most wonderful we have ever had ! I married my best friend a little over ten years ago and through all the "hell" we have been through he has always been my friend. Even when we didn't know if we should stay together and had such anger at each other we knew we were still friends. Now ten years later he has become so much more then my best friend. I am not one who likes to hide behind a pretty picture that is false. So the truth is told. I was hurt and it has taken me some time to get over the scars but God has brought complete healing to me there in the last few months. I know that this was truly a God thing. All the pain from a childhood "nightmare" and other past experiences in my marriage are gone. Things I thought would take years to get over disappeared over night. The Lord has healed my heart from very deep scars. The result ~I am no longer happy being alone with my husband a couple times a week. I want him every day ! OK, for all of you that are thinking I am just referring to sex, I am but at the same time am not :) I can't even have a simple conversation without a little someone popping around the corner to express his opinion ! Lately I have been trying to ex scape to the bathroom for some privacy but what ya know.... there is no lock on the door ! ( None on the bedroom door either in case you were wondering ! ) Just the other day when driving by a hotel my husband leaned over to share his thoughts on if we could only afford a room for one night........ Thanks for listening to me as I express my frustrations. You have helped me save at least a hundred dollars or so and I appreciate that ! ( Not really sure the going rate for a therapist, haha ) Amazing how writing can help the soul. I always find myself "self soothed" when sitting down with a pen and paper or in this case my laptop and blog :) So it is with a much lighter heart that I say goodbye.

Hello, This is your friendly neighborhood ....

HELLO, THIS IS YOUR FRIENDLY NEIGHBORHOOD HACKER!

THANK YOU FOR YOUR PERSONAL INFORMATION.......

Imagine my surprise and fear when I turned on my computer this morning to find this message very Boldly across the screen of my computer ! Instant fear gripped me as I tried not to go into a complete meltdown.

So here is my advice........

If you are ever in the same home as my brother do not I repeat DO NOT allow him to use your computer alone in his bedroom !

That's right......the message that instantly caused my heart to be gripped with fear was just a "friendly neighbor" joke bestowed upon me from my brother !

Adding Pictures......

I have added all of our pictures from yesterdays Oklahoma City trip to my face book. There you will be able to see more personal photos of us. As this is open to the public I am hesitant to post family photos. It was just in the paper last week how someone had stolen a picture from a mom's blog and was using the photo of her baby to run an adoption scam. Here they were saying her baby was up for adoption !

Pictures from our day out ~ Oklahoma City

One of the oil well thingies I referred to in my blog writing.

The state capital

The first mansion built in Oklahoma City

The cowboy museum

Cowboy museum ( sorry picture is side ways )

The pics of our trip today 8/19/09

Our day out........

Just got in after a long day out. Woke up this morning extremely tired and not wanting to get out of bed. When I finally did pull myself out I saw it was pouring down rain ..... so much for our beautiful day at the lake ! I was really looking forward to it. We were not sure what we were gonna do. We had built up the day to Chad and now we all really didn't want to spend the day in a tiny apartment. My wonderful husband came through for us :) He decided to take us to Oklahoma city for the day. We visited the National cowboy and western heritage museum. It was a great place which I would recommend to anyone that is in the area. We all enjoyed the art but I would say our favorites were the children's room and the reproduction of a old cowboy town. I think I actually enjoyed the children's room more then Chad ! He was feeling too grown up I guess to dress up and play. But play I did....let's just say I have decided I want a mini cabin and fire pit in my yard for fun ! After the museum we went to stock yard city with the large stock hold. Eugene almost got us stuck. While driving around the stockyard he saw a big "puddle" coming up. Joking around he said hope we don't get stuck in this 4 foot puddle. Then continued to drive in it. Thank God he only had half the van go through it. His side of the van went way down ! I was looking down on him and trying not to panic. His face also showed panic as he floored the pedal to try and get us through the muddy water. We were then able to eat at the cattleman's cafe/steakhouse. This restaurant is well known for its steaks even gracing the presence of some presidents. George Bush enjoys eating there when in the area. The cafe/steakhouse doesn't look like much inside or out. Just a small time diner feeling. Still with the steak being twenty something dollars we shared a meal. We wanted to eat there for the experience but with Gene laid off we have to watch what we spent. The t-bone steak and meal was great ! We ordered what George Bush usually orders when there :) After leaving with a full belly we walked around the town. To finish our day we went into downtown. We visited the memorial for the 1995 bombing. The wall where living friends, family, and visitors left things in remembrance of those lost about made the tears flow. It was really heart moving and made me think what truly is important. Innocent children and adults died that day. What if today would be our last....or our husbands....or our child's....... it makes you view things differently. On the way out of town we drove by the states capital. In the front of the capital there is an oil well thingy. ( whatever those things are they use to get the oil out of the ground ) There are actually a few different oil wells throughout the city. I am afraid the words are not flowing very freely for me tonight. I am exhausted and the mind is slowing down for the night. Good night :) P.S. I am gonna see if I can post a few pics for you all

A thought ( or two ) before I drift off to sleep.....

I have decided to do my blogging tonight as tomorrow is a busy day. We will be putting most of our school work aside and spend the day at the lake swimming. Tomorrow should be the perfect day with the temps in the ninety's. Pretty bad when driving down the road tonight with the windows down and Chad asks us to shut the windows because it has gotten cold. You know I think too that the temp has dropped........oh yeah it has, it is only 80 degrees ! Today was a day with interruptions ......first just by my wonderful hubby listening to the radio and news on the computer ( this place is only so big ) and then with the electric going off. First thought hmmmm was the bill paid ? I thought so but....... oh the whole street is out of electric ! We still managed to get most of our work done even with our inconveniences today. I find it very interesting the things children say. Don't you ? Chad had made us laugh tonight when Gene was leading us in devotions.....when talking about God will grant desires of the heart Chad somehow managed to bring in a video game ( not a very good one either ! ) Then somehow it went from being the best player of this video game to being president ! Honestly I can't explain it better because I really have no clue what he was rambling about ! Lol Of course we went on to explain that when we are truly following after the Lord with our whole heart then our desires will match up to the Lords. Hearing the cute things children come up with always makes me smile. I would be very interested in any cute things children in your household has come up with lately. Make sure to comment. Which brings me the next thing I wanted to write about. I wasn't sure if you all knew that when you get emailed my blog writings you can click on the link in the email and be taken directly to my blog page. From there you can read past and present blogs . I would love to hear from you all out there as sometimes it seems impossible to "catch up" with all those out there that I would like to talk to. I have set up this blog not just so you have one more thing in your emails but so we can stay in touch :) I have found it difficult to communicate with everyone the way I would like so this way I only have to write once but it can be read by all :) Tonight we had the most wonderful burgers ! I had purchased some good hamburger on sale. Wow ! Those burgers could measure up to any restaurants ! We had the toppings to go with...... As we are on a tight budget right now I wasn't sure if any of you all out there had good cheap meal recipes. I will be sure to share any I find also as I know with the economy most are trying to save wherever they can. I will be trying a breakfast pizza one night this week. If it is any good I will post the recipe for you all. Well as much as I would like to keep spilling my thoughts it is probably best for all of us that I go! Goodnight and sweet dreams :) ~Stacy

Letting go of my "baby"

So I am still desperately trying to get in the groove of things. My goal is to have my son up dressed, a healthy breakfast in his belly, and have some snuggling with hugs and kisses all done by 8:30. Yeah well that hasn't been happening ! LOL I know it is only the second day today so I need to give us time :) My son and I snuggled this morning but somewhere between snuggling and pancakes Chad has picked up some grumpiness. Oh yeah that's right it was all my fault ! I wouldn't cut his pancakes for him this morning! Now usually I do this for him and that is the problem. I have come to realize that my soon to be 8 year old son can not cut his own food yet. Product of being an only child. I do everything for him ! Now for all of you who are scolding me right now just calm down ! I mean I did make him cut his own pancakes this morning :) I also have been letting him dress himself, put his dirty dishes in the sink, draw his own bath, take his own bath, and help me with other misc. chores. I have come to realize he is not my baby anymore and just because God has chosen to not bless us with any more babies right now doesn't mean I can keep Chad as one. I just love him so much and want to do all that I can as a christian mother to show the servants heart I believe Christ has asked us to show. Yes , yes I know there has to be a balance hence he had to cut his own pancakes this morning :)

Family and Friend

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First day of school :)

Today was officially our first day of school ! I am still waiting on some of our curriculum but have plenty to do ! In fact I was surprised at how much time it took today. I know it will take a little time to fall into the groove of things again. I absolutely love homeschooling my son. It brings me such joy to do this :) Granted I know that this year will have it's day's just like last year. Day's of asking myself if I am crazy for doing this and crying myself to sleep. BUT overall there are more good days then not and it is TOTALLY worth it. I love routine and all that goes with homeschooling. Our life has had very little routine with my husband being laid off but I am hoping to get some sense of normalcy back. I honestly believed with my whole heart that by time school started we would once again find ourselves in a nice home with a two car garage to do all our activities. That has not happened and so I find myself homeschooling in a very small apartment. My son mentioned today that he really misses our home. I also found my heart aching for it. It was such a great place for homeschooling. I miss my classroom but know that I need to just plunge ahead with what I have. So for now our kitchen table is our "classroom" :)

Let's be friends......

I am new to this whole blogging thing. At this point I am probally writing more for my own free therapy then for any one elses amusement :) But if by some chance you have found me then Welcome ! Please don't go yet....... but give me a chance. I would love to be friends !