life as it is 1:30 in the morning.......

It is 1:30 am Monday morning. I should be sleeping but alas, I am not ! I was in bed at a decent hour but couldn't fall asleep so here I am. I have so many thoughts swirling around in my head. Plus it doesn't help that when I told my hubby I wasn't feeling well he went and bought me a big cup of Pepsi........and then I drank the whole thing! I mean goodness, they shouldn't be allowed to even serve that much soda in one cup. At this rate I might just be up at 3:30 when Gene gets up to go to work ! I have a few things to share with ya'll tonight..... uhhh I mean this morning. First off Gene brought home a vehicle this weekend for me to "test drive". It is a big messy thing by the name of an Rodeo Izuzu ( spelling ? ). It is the companys he works for and they thought maybe if I drove it this week I would then want to buy it. The other vehicle we were going to buy is still sitting in some mechanics grass and you don't even want to ask about that...trust me you don't want to know and even if you did I am not sure I really know whats up with that ! As for the one sitting outside my stomach dropped the first time I set eyes on it. I wanted to cry and complain to God. "Is this what we have been reduced to ?" each day it has gotten less uglier though. I think it is tryingto be pretty for me, really :) So, I came to the conclusion I can drive it and keep my head up enough to see out the window. Ha. Eugene on the other hand isn't so sure after this weekend. He paid the gas :) He messed with the stupid window over and over and over when it wouldn't go back up and then he paid the gas again ! So, I will have to let you know what happens with that. But either way I get a car for the week. So yay ! My second thing to share is we decided to go look at 2 more homes that would be an option for us to buy. One being a huge modular on land and another being a stick built home on little over an acre. We set it up to go see them Sat. ( yesterday ). Friday night I was a mess. I was so upset and crying and wow, so upset. As I laid in bed I had to calm myself down and ask myself what was the problem. Was it the big ugly duckling sitting out in the parking lot ? Yes?hmmm...... well no not really, I guess. So what was it ? As I went through this thought process I finally came to the relization I was sad we might turn our backs on the poor modular that obviosuly so desperatly needed my loving care ! When I realized I was sobbing over that I also knew that was stupid because if we chose another home it would be because I wanted the other home. This thinking couldn't keep me from being sad though. Really, what is up with a woman's emotions ? Saturday we went and looked at the homes and guess what, the stick built home was like ahhh, its ok. I mean it could be nice if we really gutted it, ripped off the enclosed porch, cleared off the overgrown and wooded land, ext. But you know what...it just wasn't there. You know the feeling in your heart that you know it is home. And then the second home we looked at was just to much $. I mean it is still like half or less then what we paid for our last home but I just really want a home I know is feasible to pay off in 5 years. So I realized that even though that feeling was not there the first time I saw the modular I previously blogged about. ( on half an acre ) It has definitely grown to be there now. Yesterday I just knew that I wanted to love up that place. That I didn't need to look at any other places. That we have found the place for us. When we picked up the paperwork later Sat. and my husband saw the monthly payment he knew it too :) Our payments on the place for the month will be about what we paid on our old home every week ! And we are doing a 15 year loan when on our old home we had a 30 yr ! We felt so happy. Then to just add icing on the cake I had this certain number in my head I wanted to pay. I told the Lord if He really wanted to confirm it in my heart that He is watching over this situation and us to please give us that #. A few weeks ago I thought ok Stacy, don't get so hung up over $4,000 it is only $4,000 over what you keep saying you want to spend on a home. Well, I wanted Gene to ask for the place for $4,000 less if he felt comfortable doing so. Gene never asked. The owner wrote up the papers with our mortgage amount and payments. He put the amount owed for $4,000 less then the original price quoted to us by the realtor !!!!! I just knew then that it was meant to be. I expressed to Gene I finally am starting to feel like God is smiling down on us again. Not that he wasn't blessing us before because He was but ya know what I mean ! So, by next weekend the paperwork should all be finalized. So keep it in your prayers if you remember. Thanks ! Oh and one more thing.... I am having a book show of Lia Sophia's jewelery. they have beautiful pieces and they all come with a life time guarantee. This month my "guests" will have the chance to take advantage of only the greatest sale ever ! If you buy 3 items you get half off the 2 HIGHEST priced items ! That's right ! You only pay full price for the lowest item. This sale only lasts till the end of this week. I really need a couple more orders so take a look. You won't be disappointed. Think Gifts. These items really are the perfect way to show someone you care :) I am enclosing an link with my blog. Take a look and then let me know what you think. When placing an order contact me first so I can give full details on how to do so. That way you are guaranteed to buy from my show and benefit from the great sale !