And I am back !

Dear readers, I am alive and well and back ! To all those who called thinking I died and you missed the funeral, I apologize ! Whether I am apologizing because there was no funeral or because I just stopped writing, is up to you ;) LOL Alas, I am alive and very healthy indeed. Unfortunately I can not say the same for my lap top. There was a funeral for her. I placed her on the floor for a minute and at that precise minute my wonderful son backed up and stepped right onto it. My husbands laptop has been in remission for some time but hurray, he has now recovered ! ( we finally purchased a new cord for him ) So, I am back.......hurray for me as I have been missing my free therapy sessions. Maybe not so big as a hurray for you my wonderful listeners. But you know I give you permission at any time to just stop reading ! So what is new you may be wondering ? ( if you were not then tough luck ! ) There is much new and at the same time not much at all. My wonderful husband (and best friend) is still working in North Carolina. We are still here in our suite ( minus the bugs ....thank God ! ...you don't know how long it took me to just relax and sleep good at night after all that drama ! ). Eugene bought our family season passes, to Myrtle Waves water park and Nascar speed park. Chad's also includes the rides at Broadway at the Beach. So pretty much our weekends consist of the beach, the water park, racing go carts, mini golf and watching Chad enjoy himself on the amusement park rides. I have to say That Life as it is......is pretty good right now ! No, we have not gotten a house yet but interestingly enough i came across a verse this past week that says we are to be content with food and clothing. It was like God was speaking right to me. Telling me to stop worrying about a house and just to be content. I thought hmmmm....if I would have wrote that verse I would have said to be content with a house and food and clothing but alas I did not help write the Bible ! So I have decided even if we live here or rent a home I will be content in what I have. God will provide all of our needs. I have been taking advantage of this time to spend more in the word. I am able to do this as I do not have a lot of house work to do ! LOL I know that will not always be the case so I am going to take advantage of this time right now. God has been really challenging me in the last little bit. I am sure I will write about it in the days to come. But for now I just want to say to all my readers I have found such freedom in Christ ! What joy it brings to no longer be bound by religion and other peoples opinions ! I had no idea I was even under such oppression. Which really led it self to depression. It occurred to me how in the first 8 yrs of my marriage I dealt with depression on and off. In the last 2 yrs it has really left me alone. God has shown me how to deal with it and to put it under the devils feet where it belongs. People talk about freedom in Christ but I am learning dear readers we will find true freedom once we put aside our and others thoughts about what church and life should be. How often we let church and church people dictate our thoughts and actions. God has shown me to stop comparing myself to the other people in the church and compare myself to Jesus instead. Even good people can keep us down and in their form of religion. We are going to answer to our Father in Heaven one day. Not our friends, best friends, family or even our pastors. Now don't get me wrong I love all the previously mentioned people but God is showing me that if we are content to just go along with every one elses ideas in our life we could very well miss out on the wonderful things God has for our lives ! Did you ever notice how cookie cutter we all can be ? I don't want to be cookie cutter anymore ! I want to be different ! I read a story the other day about a homeless man. It made me sick and sad and question my own relationship with the Lord. This man is an older man ( like really old ) he is an ex convict, ex drug user, ex alcoholic and a current chain smoker. He lives out of his truck on the beaches of California. What is so remarkable about this man is he is homeless by choice. He has the $ to have a home. Yet he chooses to use his $ every month to buy food for the other homeless. He lives out of his truck and every night preaches as he cooks up food for the other homeless. He tells them that if Jesus can save him he can save anybody. The first thing I thought was if I or most people in the church saw this man down at the beach how quickly we would probably turn the other way. Try to avoid contact with him. If your like me you will put your arm around your child and gently steer him away as to create more distance between him and you both. Maybe we would turn up our noses at him or maybe not but I'm sure we would deep down inside have some kind of negative thought.......... then I felt sad and sick because it occurred to me that this man most of us would walk the other way from is probably a better christian then me ! Picture an really old dirty man, tattoos all over, ex convict with a cigarette hanging out of his mouth living out of a truck then picture me......chubby but kinda cute ( come on, I am KINDA cute right ? I mean compared to him ! and I am clean ! ) Do you see where I am going with this......I mean what if God asked us to live out of our van and give all our $ towards making food for the homeless. To be really honest I do not think I am yet a place where I could say yes. And what if I would say yes....what do you think most people ( yes, church people ) would say about that ? I mean if a friend of ours came to us and told us they heard God tell them to do that we would probably think they are taking it a little to far ! So funny, when I shared the verse I shared earlier I had no intentions of sharing this story but there in that story is a man who is truly content with just food and clothing. Just a little something to ponder......and for those who think maybe I went a little to serious in my blog today.... I do NOT apologize ! :) Well, I need to let you go as we are fixing to leave soon. So until next time be blessed as we are all truly blessed !